It's been awhile since I've written and I really need to commit to content. It's been a bit of a roller coaster this fall/winter. Parental medical drama and trauma, offspring going to college, empty nest syndrome, responsibility/career shifts...and more! There was a general feeling of being "untethered". gratefully that diminished quickly.
I'm not a very mercurial person. Feeling that things are chaotic or spinning our of my purview is very uncomfortable for me. I find it really hard to sit with. When I don't, as we all do, I revert to habits. Sometimes not such healthy habits and behaviors. I am a very open person (heart on the sleeve actually) but I also have some introverted personality qualities. It's important to intentionally stretch our tendencies. It's also important to remember to re-charge to get back into balance. For me? If I get overstimulated and then I get a little manic. Sort of like a toddler who's had a too long playdate, eaten chocolate and had no nap. So, how to re-charge? These work for me:
Take a few deep breaths.
Ride a bicycle. Or go for a walk/run, lift weights, something physical to dissipate energy.
Practice yoga that is grounding. LOTS of standing poses. Screw those feet to the ground and move the Apana DOWN!
Remember that the only way for someone to have power, is to give it to them.
Find something that will makes me laugh, really, really hard.
Go and teach! Re-channel energy to something positive.
Write! Re-channel that energy to something therapeutic.
Do NOT pick up the phone! Re-re-establish boundaries.
Be kind to myself, and say, "Self, sometimes, it just happens, you are human. Let it go."
Sit down and be quiet.